Debby Downer

Have you ever seen the Saturday Night Skit of "Debby Downer." It is so funny. My Mom recently told me that my posts are too depressing. The last thing I want to do is portray myself as a Debby Downer. So I apologize if I have come off that way. I have been contemplating what she said and would like to offer some explanations to my posts.

First of all: I feel like my blog is just that. My Blog. No body has to read it. They can choose at anytime to not log on.

The last three years of running my business I felt like I had to live my life completely perfect. I couldn't let others see me struggle or go through hard times. I had to be strong, hold it together and stay in control at all times. Which ultimately left me falling apart.

I also feel like I am human. I have hard days I have good days. I have ups and downs. Some things make me happy and some things make me sad. I like to write about these things so that I can look back and see the progress I have made.

I realize at times I share some very personal feelings or struggles that I or my family are going through. I know that this isn't the right thing or comfortable thing for everyone else but it is for me. I feel like I have nothing to hide.

Have you ever heard about something happening to a dear friend and thought to yourself; If I had just known, I would have helped. Or I wished she would have shared that struggle because it really would have helped me. Well that's how I have felt lately. We can only truly help one another if we allow each other the safety and courage of opening up. How else will they receive the blessings of serving one another if we don't allow them or ourselves to share.

It makes me think of one of my favorite books. The Book Of Mormon. How could we ever learn if everything in it was so upbeat and perfect all the time. We would have no way to face our trials if we didn't have good examples from those who faced them before.

I realize that my sweet Mom grew up in a generation of....Hold your feelings in, don't share to much info and never let anyone see you fall apart. It in fact it has been that way in my family for many generations. All I have seen come from it is, unresolved issues, hurt feelings that never get mended and people having to struggle through trials alone. I have always wondered why depression runs so strong in my family. But looking back on the last sentence I just wrote, it makes it all so clear. Wow, I just had an epiphany. AMAZING!

Any how, I am choosing to make that different in my life. I want to share. I want to help others. I wan to allow others to help me. No body should ever have to face their trials alone. And no body should ever have to share their joys alone.

So, In celebrartion of my "Debby Downer" post. I am going to put a peppy upbeat song on my blog today.