Lately I have been struggling with a lot of anxiety. Luckily, I have a friend of mine and a cute sister that have been open about the same problem. It has given me more strength to be honest about it and cope with it better. It has also helped me realize that a panic attack isn't an instant "crazy" diagnoses.
I'm sure a lot of it is that I have added a lot to my plate recently. School is just a few days away and I am feeling more and more insecure about it. I am afraid if I find out that it is more than I can take on right now then I will look like a failure. But yet I still know that I am a strong person and need to at least try. I keep asking myself why I was so stupid and didn't go before I had kids like all the smart people did. Oh well, we live with the choices we make and move on.
I realize that this is a venting post instead of a real upbeat one. But, since I use this as a journal I am hoping to look back on this and realize that I can do hard things.
I'm so grateful for such a good husband. He has reassured me when I am feeling insecure and has let me cry on his shoulder daily (believe me, it has been daily lately.)He always tells me that I am stronger than I think I am. I'm glad he sees that in me even when I can't see it at the time.
I hope everyone has a great new year. I love the fresh start that each new year brings and hope we can all help each other achieve our new goals.(Even if they are hard ones!)
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You Rock!! You do everything amazing! It might not be easy to do everything you are trying to do...but you will. I am glad to see your blog again!!
Kari,
I am having a smaller version of a panic attack about starting school too, but I have to ask myself what do I want out of life? Am I content just being a Secretary? The answer for me is no so I have to get to work. WE can do it!!! Mom gave me a quote about not looking back and I have it posted at work. I'll send you it sometime. What's in the past is in the past. So we didn't go to school when we were young we did other great things instead like have kids. Think of the example we are setting for our kids that it's never too late. Atleast you're 10 years younger than me. That's something to brighten your day.
Love you! I'll be praying for you!
I have no doubt that you can do hard things. You are one strong person. Going back to school IS nerve-racking, it was for me after just 2 years off, but soon it will be routine and you'll be glad you did it right now. Good luck!
"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."
-Phillipians 4:13_
This has been my source of strength through my many struggles in life. Hope it helps.
Love You,
Rob
You will do just fine. You are 10 years younger than I was when I went back to school and if I could do it...you certainly can!! As Angie said, you can do it now...or wait. Either way, time is going to pass. You're better off getting it done now. And you're lucky you have such a supportive husband to help you through it.
Love you,
Mom
You can do it!!!! What a good example you are to your kids. My mom and dad actually discouraged me from going to college saying that I would just waste their money and end up getting married before I finished with a degree. I did go to a technical college and became a Dental Asst. I will for sure make sure my kids go to college and what a better way to tell them....be an example.
Crap, does that mean I have to go back to school too? You are a good example to me too.
Good Luck.
Oh, I totally struggle with anxiety too, you are so not alone.
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